I am flowing in your grace.
Thank you, amen.

“We are loved, all of us. Love is the divine energy within us; love is the fueld for the journey, the beginning of the journey, the end of the journey. Love is the energy of the path, the fabric of the universe, the way God lets Himself be known in the world. our longing to go Home, our longing for God, our longing to be ourselves completely will guide love to us, will increase the love within us, and will allow love to transform us. But we know the tendency to turn away from love; there is always the danger that we don’t trust it. It is so important that women allow themselves to be loved. That is the way we give ourselves in complete trust. For man of us it is much easier to identify with someone who loves, who is actively giving. but how is it to be loved, without control, without limiting what flows to us in abundance. And to not care about being vulnerable to love, to accept the bewilderment of love, and even to accept the violation that comes with love? We like the side of love that is tender, soft, and embracing, the love that gives us what we want. But love has this other side as well that we sometimes forget. It is the violent quality of love, uncompromising and allowing nothing but the truth. Love is a quality of light, and when the light enters the darkness it can hurt. A ray of light can be very painful for eyes that are used to the dark. Light can come in and split us open. Int his way, the violent side of love destroys our sense of wholeness. But even our sense of wholeness evolves, and there is a transformation into a consciousness of oneness in which even more can be included.”

Hilary Hart, The Unkonwn She: Eight Faces of an Emerging Consciousness

I opened a card while sitting in a meeting at Intel today,
this was the message:

“Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it.”

I’m announcing my decision… I want it more than I’m afraid of it!
I’m excited to now be receiving it! YES!  xo

i border you here
in the silence
of still presence
i hear you breathing
you are not alone
held as
souls’ caress
i pray you feel
this grace
loving you whole
opening your heart
to this grief and beyond
you are beautiful
to me
i love you
whole
i love you
always

In a dark time, the eye begins to see,
I meet my shadow in the deepening shade;
I hear my echo in the echoing wood–
A lord of nature weeping to a tree,
I live between the heron and the wren,
Beasts of the hill and serpents of the den.

What’s madness but nobility of soul
At odds with circumstance? The day’s on fire!
I know the purity of pure despair,
My shadow pinned against a sweating wall,
That place among the rocks–is it a cave,
Or winding path? The edge is what I have.

A steady storm of correspondences!
A night flowing with birds, a ragged moon,
And in broad day the midnight come again!
A man goes far to find out what he is–
Death of the self in a long, tearless night,
All natural shapes blazing unnatural light.

Dark, dark my light, and darker my desire.
My soul, like some heat-maddened summer fly,
Keeps buzzing at the sill. Which I is I?
A fallen man, I climb out of my fear.
The mind enters itself, and God the mind,
And one is One, free in the tearing wind.

~ Theodore Roethke

Archivist: The report said commander Chang was killed in the assault.
Sonmi-451: That is correct.
Archivist: Would you say that you loved him?
[Sonmi smiles]
Sonmi-451: Yes, I do.
Archivist: Do you mean you are still in love with him?
Sonmi-451: I mean, that I will always be.
[we see Sonmi back in the Satellite Communication Center broadcasting her message, watching as the Enforcers attack the station with Chang and the rest of Union fighting them]
Sonmi-451: Our lives are not our own. From womb to tomb, we’re bound to others. Past and present. And by each crime and every kindness, we birth our future.
[an explosion hits Chang, tears run down her face as Sonmi watches him die]
Archivist: In your Revelation, you spoke of the consequences of an individual’s life replicated throughout eternity. Does this mean that you believe in an afterlife? In a heaven or a hell?
Sonmi-451: I believe this is only a door. When its closes, another opens. If I can’t imagine heaven, I would imagine a door opening, and behind it, I will find him there, waiting for me.

oh love eternal
limitless
beyond death
i know only
you
to be true

From the still radiance this morning, offered to all of you…the One diversifying and expressing oh so magnificently…i bow to your beauty, power and integrity:

Oh beloved creation birthing
within me
cell to cell
the sound scent touch
of love
reverberating
vibrating
I am God’s creation.

I am God the Body
Heaven and Earth
Breathing the One
Luminous Life Force
Divine Entelechygence
I am God the Body
In All Things Whole
Oh my,
I am God the Body
I am Whole
Luminous Radiance
Erotic Aliveness
All things carry me home

I am Goddess the Body
Free to flow
To Be
To Love
To Respond
To Fly Soar
I am Goddess the Body
Nectar Sweet
Tantalizing Eros
Intoxicating Grace
I am Goddess the Body
Loving as She Loves
Touch
Sensation
Desire
Pleasure

Beholding the Body
of I AM
Realized Realizing
Awakened Awakening
Flame Flaming
Blaze Blazing
Truth and Love
Throughout Creation

I AM God Goddess the Body
And this is My Home.

Ameyn. Deep Bow. Shalom. Salaam.

“The reason that ego and love are not compatible comes down to this:
you cannot take your ego into the unknown,
where love wants to lead.
If you follow love,
your life will become uncertain,
and the ego craves certainty.”
— Deepak Chopra